“You don’t get to run this experiment twice.”
Those are the words my husband said to me the other morning while I was wavering about taking my chemo pills.
In December it was discovered that my cancer had grown, (groan!) so Dr. Baron started me on a regimen of daily chemo pills in addition to my weekly chemo infusion. I do this for two weeks, then off two weeks. Then on. Then off. Until my next evaluation in March.
In the meantime, I swallow the pills, sit through the infusions, and do what I can as I can. The other morning, however, I was simply sick and tired of being sick and tired, so I considered skipping the pills. I mentioned my dilemma to Mike. That’s when he said what he said.
I swallowed the pills.
That’s also the day I started an oil painting class with Susan Greaves, award-winning painter. Susan has long been one of my favorite painters. I’ve always wanted to own one of her paintings, so I bought my first one two months ago.
Her impressionistic style draws me into her paintings, her heart keeps me there. The fact that she lives in Redding is incredible as it is, but couple that with her decision to teach a class this year, and I practically swooned.
I have spent the last few years spending hundreds of dollars on watercolor supplies; last year spending hundreds of dollars on acrylic supplies, and last week spending hundreds of dollars on oil painting supplies.
I guess that’s the price I pay for passion.
But I say, “Thank God for passion!”
Passion! Passion! Passion!
Without passion, I would be a lump, a slug, a joyless twit. Well, maybe not that last one, but maybe….
So, thank you Susan Greaves for bringing new passion to my life.
Thank you readers for encouraging me to continue my blog passion.
Thank you God for giving me passion: passion enough to swallow the bitter pills life hands me.
And thank you Michael for giving me laughter.
Laughter, is after all, one of my favorite passions!
I hope passion finds you today. If you’re not familiar with it, it’s that sweet nibble of excitement that spreads warm from your heart and out your mouth into a grin that cannot be wiped off. Or sometimes is burns like fire, igniting your soul. Either way, you will know it when you feel it. Either way, it will help you overcome that which would suppress you. Either way, you will be happier.
As for today, I am officially off my chemo pills for two weeks. That should give me enough time to look at stained glass art around town. I wonder how difficult that is to make….