What three wishes have you wished for in your lifetime?
I don’t mean the universal ones like love, laughter, joy and connection. Those are freely given, available for the taking. Rather, I mean 3 wishes you’ve had to work hard for to make come true. The ones that make you unique, different in our sameness.
My three wishes have been:
#1: Become a teacher.
#2: Ride my bicycle on a century (100 mile) bike ride.
#3: Learn how to sing.
#4: (Okay, I know I said 3, but I bet you will come up with more, so I will too. :-)) Have a book published.
Little did I know that I would ever accomplish #4.
In April of 2011 I was told by a well-meaning surgeon that due to my advanced stage of pancreatic cancer I could live maybe another three or four months. At first I was tempted to get depressed, cry and clean out my closets! But on second thought, or third, or fourth, I can’t be sure which, I decided that maybe it was time to take a look at that fourth wish on my list. After all, what did I have to lose?
So as I had the energy, I sat at my computer and bit by bit, word by word, keeping an eye on my goal–I wrote. At times I honestly didn’t know if I would live long enough to complete it. I even asked my friend Pamela if she would see the project through to completion for me if necessary. She agreed. True friend.
But I did make it. Or, I should say I wrote it and it was published. I guess that’s one of the rewards of choosing to continue living my life as fully as I am able. I was so happy the day my box of books was delivered, I cried. I thought it couldn’t get much better, but I was wrong.
It got better.
I took my books Saturday to an Author’s Fair, hoping to sell maybe 5 copies–or so, and being happy with that number–or so. I was not prepared for what happened next. The line formed in front of my table like honeybees drawn to nectar.
I was humbled by the beautiful shining faces waiting in line to support me and my efforts and listen as some professed their appreciation for my writing. I would have cried the tears of gratitude and love welling up in my heart, but I was too busy signing books. Within the first hour, I sold out, even my copy. After that, I took orders totaling nearly 50 more.
(An Aside): I’d like to invite all who read my book to leave a review (a fancy word for comment) on my Amazon page. Simply scroll down to where it invites you to write a review. You don’t have to be a writer, you only have to be a reader so you can tell others why they may want to read my book. Thank you for doing this for me.
(An Afront: ha! ha!) How rich life can be, even in the face of struggles, trauma and loss. If during those times we can remember to put one foot in front of the other, one step at a time, trying the best we can to live our life, even when it hurts, then truly, we will end up with all we have wished for.
And this time I do mean the universal ones like love, laughter, joy and connection. The wishes that do not make us different. The wishes that make us realize that we are, after all, the same.
(Book ordering information is given under the tab: Gayle’s Book.)